Thursday, July 8, 2010

A new job, a new life

I love drawing, definitely. Everybody knows that. Wait, not everybody, but, my friends. Working as a game graphic designer? Cool. I love drawing, but after drawing too much...nah, I can't love my job anymore. Wanna say I hate drawing, but can't since my hand always automatically scribbled any white space on the paper whenever I lay my hand on a pencil and eraser. I definitely still love drawing. Working my first job (designer) make me realize something about myself. I still passionately love drawing, but I hate it when I am forced to draw. Simple solution for my dilemma? Stop the job. Besides, I've already gotten a new job.

The second job is DBA (database administrator). Okay, 180 degrees, but hey, at least I still have to use computer haha.
I can't say I like query (I deal with that quite a lot), but for some strange reason, I like this job. Maybe it's not about what I like and don't. Maybe it's about the environment and the people inside. They're kind and helpful. I learn a lot of things from them. Not just technical knowledge but also lots and lots of social knowledge.

Anyway, I've gotten mine, and some friends had also gotten theirs, so congrats for them. For those who hasn't gotten jobs, don't give up! I hope you'll got one soon.

= Every problem has in it the seeds of its own solution. If you don't have any problems, you don't get any seeds. (Norman Vincent Peale) =

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Suikoden Tierkreis

As the name stated, it is one of suikoden series, but this one is for NDS. Well, the hero is no longer silent character (which I think SUPER DUPER GOOD since I don't really like silent character). Overall, its a good game. The storyline is definitely different from other suikoden series. There will be no more runes (and true runes). All those runes are changed to Mark of the Stars (well, it's still using magics, just with different names). I really really want to say I like this game but I'm a bit dissapointed that there will be no more Viki and Blinking Mirror to teleport you anywhere. It's annoying to go back and forth plus have to fight monsters along the way. Well, in a sense, it good too since want it or not you will level up your characters too (except if you escape on every single encounter)

The number of characters you can recruit is definitely still the same, 108 characters. I think from all suikoden series, characters in this tierkreis are the easiest to get. Money does not come from monsters. You have to do quests and you'll get money from completing them (plot quest gives a lot of money!) Sometimes, characters can only be recruited through quests too. Easy is overall impression I get. Although I do find A difficulty to recruit a character (Savina). I read the faq and it says Savina can be recruited after hero & co came back from Scribes village but I didn't get her until the end (before fight in Cynas). The thing is, you have to talk to Icas until he said something about meeting hero in Cynas and then hero will wonder what happen to the couple he met there.

Go on to the storyline, this time konami really changed the theme! There are tons of other worlds (called infinity). Talk about suikoden, definitely talk about wars. This time war is different too. No more batallion battle on world map. You choose few characters and team, fight some enemies on an area, and PHEW, done! Easy!

Actually, I don't really know how I feel about this suikoden. I think the storyline is complicated, but at the same time, simple. Maybe it's the main character. The hero is the type that will say, "I will not tolerate evil!" and "I won't know until I try!" (this one is his motto, yeah). I prefer Jale's character though.

I finish this game yesterday morning (well, I always play game from midnight till dawn haha). The hero was given a choice after their defeat while fighting the One King. You will be given a choice. Combine the powers of all stars (but the person will die) or find another way. If you want easy way, choose to combine. You don't have to climb the Statue of One King. You won't see how the hero combine the power, but the One King will surely die and then light...and then puff, your hero become the new One King! Twisted indeed! Well I like it though bwahahhahah. Okay, that's a bad ending. All One Kings in the infinity is the Tenkai star (leader of 108 stars). If you choose the 2nd option, you'll have to climb Tower of the Way in Cynas' ruin. You will get the final false Chronicle and then you'll have to climb Statue of One King. You'll fight him afterward. I don't know if it's only me, but when the hero uses the 12 false chronicles, he looked like Goku from Dragonball when using the Dragonballs. It's kinda lame actually...
Anyway, like most games, you'll have to fight the last bost several times. The 1st and 2nd time is SUPER EASY, but not the 3rd. The third have a skill that will damage all your characters (go level up your character at least till 60 and you'll be okay). The ending is so-so...a happy ending~ (oh, and I just LOVE Atrie. He's so cute! Atrie is the Tenkai star from other world, and one of hero's best friend)

Talking about Atrie, in the story he says that the friend that he was searching for had a wife and child, but that child had a gateway accident (definitely the hero). Maybe that's why the hero can remember about the forest although he hasn't touched the chronicle.

Well, the conclusion is this one is one good game (although I hope konami can make the hero's character is more twisted, like Yuri Lowell from Tales of Vesperia for example. He's a type of hero that dislike evil but I like his personality better than most heros in the games)

Next game may be Valkyrie Profile: Convenant of the Plume.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

My lie...

The thing has been sorted up a little so maybe in a few days I can tell my friends the whole truth, but there's this feeling of afraid. I think I've lied too much. Well, not fully lying but people had sent me their support...somehow it's just weird if suddenly I told the truth. It's not as BIG as they might think and I can say that they might disappointed.

Anyway, I warned you, don't be surprised and well, I'm not fully lying so forgive me...

- so damn guilty -

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

The story of my life

This post is dedicated to those who want to know what happen recently.

I can't tell the whole story but, 1 thing that I can say is: We're not breaking up because of 3rd person or such. Shit just happen, and that's that.
Okay, maybe that's not really clear but I can't tell much. I will have to sort out this problem first. Later on, I will upload it in this blog.

Remember, we DO NOT break up because we wanted to but we HAVE TO.

= so sad cause the skirt is too tight. maybe a few days of diet will do? =

Saturday, July 19, 2008

It's weird

Somehow everything seems so weird. In relationship = in contact is just an obligation, just friend = somehow I feel like contacting you. Human is so complicated.

Lately, I've been thinking. The more I think, the more I have negative thoughts. The burden that I have become heavier as I continued to lie. Is this the correct decision? I don't know. Few things that I think I can be sure of are:
1. he never lies to me, therefore I can try to believe him
2. his mental is not strong
3. his life is so mixed up
4. I am a strong girl
5. I am a stupid girl
6. I am a naive girl
7. I am clueless
8. I have a lot of good friends therefore I can be strong.

- Though I know I lie, though I know I cannot speak the truth, thank you for everybody's kindness -

= Not in happy mood but not sad at all =

Thursday, July 17, 2008

'cause I know I can be strong

Overcoming 1 of the things that I feared the most is not as hard as I thought. 2 days crying and...puff....I felt nothing. Honestly, in a sense, I think I'm being to indifferent but maybe that's because we have a silly reason for breaking up. I kept thinking that the reason is just.....so strange that I feel so angry. I wanted to pour my anger to him but I can't do that. I wanted to tell him that he is so weak but I know it's not his fault. If I was in the same situation, I might do the same or might not. I almost never let my feeling of anger and disappointment hinder my brain when it comes to study. Maybe that's what keeping me from failing my subjects (exception for DWDS). Anyway, I can't blame him for everything because I WAS the cause of his failure in the first place. Somewhere in my heart, my weak mind keep telling me that he has no feeling for me anymore but I tried to ignore it. I know it'll make thing worse, at least for me it will. I was scared, I was hurt, I was disappointed but I can do nothing. I let him do whatever he want. If everything can't be fixed, then so be it. I will try to accept it...cause I know...I am strong...and even if I am weak, I will try to be strong...

- I thank Mr. Sunshine for his kindness -
- I thank Isacc and Otou-sama for their attention for me -

- Still not in the best mood but better than yesterday ;) -

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Shit happen in my life

Broke up, those are 2 simple words that I believe I will never have in my life, but...shit does happen. I broke up....

I cried...

I cried...

AND I cried...

Honestly, I'm so damn hurt. When he told me that, I felt a hammer was hitting my head. I don't believe it. WHOEVER (and I believe that you guys, my friends will) read this, please just don't ask me why, unless u wanna see me cry in front of u!! (I'm giving u a warning!)

= I curse those assholes who made us break up! =

= in shitty mode =